Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Day of Reflecting

I was talking to my best friend from childhood this morning.  Her father's funeral is this afternoon.  He passed away from cancer just three months after my Mom.  I wish so badly I could be there to support and show love.  I have been very reflective all day about my sweet Mom and the week of her passing and funeral. Talking to my friend Kathleen this morning brought back a flood of emotions, recent memories, and feelings.

This past general conference weekend I reflected a lot about life, our purpose on earth, and the strength that the gospel gives us.  One of the first things I wanted to do after conference was call my sweet mom and talk to her about all of the talks I loved, and how beautiful Temple Square looked, and how my kids were, and all the things I would talk to her about.  I talked to my Mom every day on the phone.  But I have such a vivid memory of talking to her after every conference while living away.  The firsts without her are the hardest.

One of the things I have been reflecting on today and last weekend is the love I have felt from other people through these past months.  The love other people have shown for my Mom and family has been the strength to get me through.  Some parts of the day of my Mom's funeral are a little blurry, but the love felt is still poignant in my mind and heart.  What a blessing.  I felt so much love for her, from other people, and  I felt so much love from a perfect Heavenly Father.

I have been reminded as of late how much Heavenly Father shows his love for us here on earth through other people.  It has seemed in my moments of sadness there has been a phone call from a friend at just the right time, or a visit from a friend, or a package from a relative, or a sweet act from one of my kids that reminds me of love.  I am just so grateful for that.  Service takes on a different meaning when you are the one being served.  I have realized the importance and impact we all make in each others lives.  I am most grateful for the love that I still feel and will always feel for my Mom.  I know that the only way this is possible is because of God and our Savior.  I feel love from others everyday.   Thank you friends, thank you mom, and thank you God.  That is what I want to say today!


Alicia said...

Those are really beautiful thoughts! Thanks for sharing!! What is your E-mail address so I can invite you to see my blog? :-)

Alicia said...

Oops...my E-mail address if you wouldn't mind sending me yours is aliciawalters99@gmail.com

GeNee said...

I always talked to your Mom after conference too. I wanted to call her because my little Elsa, Stephen and Brynn's little girl came down with diabetes at eleven months. It is so much work for Brynn and Stephen and so sad, but we are trying to be brave, I think your Mom is looking after all of us. And she was such a good example facing her illness that we are trying to have as much faith as she did. I know you miss her so much.