The Funeral.

So one of the things therapeutic for me has been to listen to my Moms funeral often.  It helps me feel close to her and close to my family while living away from Utah.  I feel love for my Mom, and for my brothers and sister, and Dad.  Hearing what they have to say about Mom just makes me happy. One of the things that has brought our family peace during this time, have been the times we have sat around and just talked about all of the amazing and fun, and funny experiences with Mom.  We each feel she mothered us differently and brilliantly.  Her greatest happiness came from being a mother, and what a blessing that was for us growing up.  What an example.  So .....my kids have become use to having the funeral in the background, in the car, or just at home.  I had a touching moment a few nights ago.  Alyssa was having a hard time falling asleep, like usual, and like usual I was a little frustrated.:)  So I suggested we put more music on for her.  She then looked at me and asked if she could listen to Grandma's funeral.  At first I was little shocked, and then wondered if it was a little morbid.  But then I realized that it brought her peace to listen about Grandma and to hear her Aunt, Uncles, and cousins participate in the services.  She loves my Mom and misses her too.  We are all trying to continue to keep her with us during our days.  Listening the funeral often for me has helped.